Do I want to be better? Yes, but I am fine if “better” doesn’t come in the form of a cure. I’m perfectly okay if it comes out of a bottle of pills and the help of a good therapist along with a great circle of support and a fantastic psychiatrist.
I know full well that my bipolar disorder is sticking around and I’m always aware that it could rear its head at anytime but I also know myself (and my disorder) well enough now to be able to catch the episodes as they arise. Note that this doesn’t mean I can stop them necessarily, just that I can be aware and that’s a great first step that frankly took me years to get to.
However, although I would love to see a future cure, I mostly work hard being “better” now. Whether it’s for myself or my family, I need to be stable and because of that I need to stay focused on managed care rather than the pursuit of a cure. If a cure came my way and had enough scientific background and peer-reviewed studies involved I’d possibly give it a chance but really, if I’m doing okay I’m not likely to mess with my balance. I kind of like being able to know where I am in my space – mental and physical.
Besides, I think those around me kinda prefer it that way… 😉