Do I want help? No. Do I need it? Yes. Despite how much I wish I didn’t, I know I can’t do this alone.
Reaching it out is crucial in managing my symptoms and getting through problems when they arise. Today was a great example so I’m sharing it with you in the hopes that it will help someone else feel a little less alone.
It’s hard because I (like many) am too prideful sometimes and don’t wanting to seem weak by asking for assistance. See, I don’t want to be perceived as needy or burden other with my issues. But it is exactly those times that I need to reach out and today I gathered up my courage did just that. I’m not sure why my brain was so off kilter this morning but it was and I managed to take a small problem and blow it out of proportion. I struggled for at least a few hours before finally breaking down and asking for help. To my surprise the response was overwhelmingly positive. My friends and family helped online and in person, and I am grateful for them and their willingness to help me through a rough patch that could have been much harder without them.
It’s not easy for most people to admit they need help and I think sometimes it’s even harder when I’m in the middle of my episodes, especially as I don’t always realize I need it. I know that meds and therapy are not enough for me. I need my care circle and my friends and family are a critical part of that. I am working on opening myself further to be more open and vulnerable and to ask for help more often when I truly need it, but that’s hard for me. Today was a good reminder once again of how fortunate I really am to have the circle of friends and family that I do. Truly good people who are happy to reassure me that I am cared for and accepted exactly as I am, even if I am a bit eccentric and wear my heart on my sleeve. They care for me regardless and for that I am truly thankful.
So, if you find yourself stuck, try reaching out. Just give it a shot. You might find a someone waiting and willing to do whatever is needed to get you through your moment. Having bipolar is hard enough, you don’t have to do it alone. Find a support group or online site where you can find help when you need it. Be open about your condition. Let people into your circle and be vulnerable, be open about where you’re at and let people help you. It’s worth it.